Game Design Geek

I spent my weekend cleaning my apartment, I wanted to get out and do something but I just didn’t get motivated to do it. I have so much filing to do. Man has it piled up, I dont even know where to start. then I need to go through and sort everything out by year and store that away. I probably have at least 6-8 hours of it to do, and I keep putting it off because its so daunting.

Ok, so thats enough of me whining about home stuff. The home search is stalled. I just cant seem to find what I want for some reason. Im hoping that my choices get better here as it gets closer to spring. I know that a lot of people dont sell in the wintertime unless they have to, and that people wait till summer to sell. Unfortunaly the market gets more out of reach in the meantime.

My work on Urban Terror work is going good. I have decided to support crenshaw for the last version of the game for q3. So now I need to sit down and figure out how Im going to work this out. I think that its going to be a lot of work, and that I may not get it done in time. But I will give it my best. Things here at Smartbomb are going well. There is a lot of adjustment going on, but I think that happens everywhere you go. Some friends have contacted me from the Collective and have told me how unhappy they are, so its a good thing that I’m not there anymore.

Been a while since my last posting. Well, whats going on? Work on Snoopy is going alright. I have also bee plugging away on crenshaw. I have been using MAYA. I have gotten away from using max because we are using here at work and I need all the practice I can get. Things other then that are ok. My birthday came and went yesterday and no word from my family. Not that I really expected anything.

I have to admit that I am sort of lonely in a way. One of my friends that I used to have while I was here I havnt heard from in quite a while. Not sure what is up with him, I hope he is alright. It was different last time I was here. I think that I was socializing more with both work and school. Now Im just working and I havn’t found people here that could hang out with. I guess I just must be getting old. These guys all seem like kids.

I have been trying to lose weight, but its a struggle. Im not really motivated to do it for some reason. I think I need a good swift kick in the ass. I dont have anyone here to motivate me so I need to do so myself and thats never easy.

Home shopping isn’t going so well either. There just doesn’t seem to be a lot of good affordable choices anymore. there was last time I was here. This valley all the sudden got really popular and that undervalued market went away. So now I have to look even harder for a cheap place or prey the market takes a major dump. The whole reason for moving here was so that I could afford to buy a home. If I’m not doing that, then I might as well move back to Cailifornia. I do have to admit that I miss my friends at the Collective.

Speaking of that, one of the guys called me yesterday to let me know that we shipped Getting-Up and that it will be coming out February 14th. Valentines day…..wow, now finally a reason to celebrate that fake holiday. I was also informed that things weren’t the same anymore, and that they have become corperate. I saw this coming way before I left the company, and that was another reason for leaving. I want to have good memories of working there, and I know that if I had stayed I too would have become dissapointed with working there. I wanted to leave on my own terms and leave for all the right reasons. Besides, I dont think I could ave held out working on a game for 2 years for a company that had become EA. The small team, family atmosphere that we had going is gone, and they will never get that back. Im going to miss it, and my time there, and all the friends that I made doing it. It was probably the best 19 months of my life. And I wouldn’t have traded it for the world.

As for things that happened in my personal life why I was there. Man, that wasn’t so good. I can’t exlain what happened there, suffice to say….I screwed up. Diane and I still remain good friends though and I am thankful for that. She was probably one of the rare things that I did right and I can see us remaining life long close friends. And during my time at the Collective we grew less and less intertwined. Until at the end we were completly free of each other. Now we email and call less frequiently. But in life things end, and the only constant is change.